On week 2 of treatment, the therapists decided it would be a good idea to have every staff member (even without proper credentials) to write one positive and one negative about every client. I had two really nasty ones written about me that were anonymous, calling me delusional and other things - and the only positive thing is that i was “staying here” (this was when i just arrived, my mind was not in the right place to hear anything like this)
they realized this lesson was awful, other clients received hurtful and unhelpful anonymous notes. they ended the activity early, and promised that i could have a sit down conversation with the people who wrote the things about me for clarity. they never told me, i never got closure. i’m still convinced it was the owner.
they also lied about many things. empty promises. treated you like a criminal.
and they wanted to force agnostic/atheists into believing in god, they wanted me to believe that i couldn’t quit without faith.
there was another woman struggling and possibly using while in rehab, they used me to try to get her to talk about how she’s using. it felt inappropriate, I’m not a professional and i barely knew this woman.
the food was filled with oil and fat, and everyone gained weight, while they tried to search for a different chef. by the time they did i was leaving. i gained 25 pounds.
i truly believe that i could have been treated in another facility easily. i wanted to quit, i had my rock bottom, and i was determined. however this company saw me as $$$ and they convinced my mom that i needed an extra month in rehab. if i was to say, “i don’t need a that” well, that doesn’t sound that convincing from an addict… so my mom spent more money than she needed to. and i spent another month, repeating the same lessons i had done already, very under-stimulated with very little entertainment (they had a small small bookshelf, and only let us watch tv 15-20 minutes a week) and became severely depressed to where i needed 10 hours of sleep.
looking back 5 years later, i can say that this place doesn’t have the best intentions. there are a few good people that work there, but overall the management and organization is sub par, and there is something sketchy about it, and exploitative and experimental. i can’t explain it completely. i was very addicted to cigarettes and they tried to hypnotize me, it didn’t work, unfortunately. but, about a year after i left, i saw a tiktok talking about a book- and i was able to quit. it’s called Easy way to quit smoking cigarettes by allen carr.
but- they wont tell you about the easy way for things, they wouldn’t make enough money that way. i recommend picking somewhere they doesn’t have so many 1 star reviews, best of luck 💕 recovery is possible 👍