Taylor, the Granite Bay director, is so unnecessarily mean. I can name example after example of instances where she intentionally made decisions that directly conflicted with what was in the best interest of my care. Taylor's baseless and biased edicts would knock me off my feet— had me feeling like a "nothing." She applied rules unfairly, changed them on a whim which confused staff and patients, rewarded patients that she favored arbitrarily, and failed to recognize that eating disorder recovery oftentimes elicits uncharacteristic and obstreperous behavior in vulnerable patients because old habits die screaming.
The way Taylor treated me made me feel like a toxic disease that needed to be controlled, corrected, and cast-out, but I'm damned if I do give a damn what people say and I'm still extremely appreciative of the treatment team that advocated so fiercely on my behalf. Kristy, Lily, and Reba are the greatest RD, Therapist, and RN of all time and Taylor truly didn't know how lucky she was when she had the 3 of them on her staff. While they sought to understand the source of my emotional dysregulation and support my needs, Taylor sought to punish me by making harmful decisions regarding my treatment. She failed to support the individualized needs of patients, and the constant threat of punishment, demotion, and discharge made it difficult to make progress on the internal work I was at Granite Bay to focus on.
She felt that I was brash and boisterous— if standing on chairs, coping with stress by visiting the neighbor's horse, and developing a sense of mutual trust and respect with staff members is truly as catastrophic as she implies, then I have to say I had a marvelous time ruining everything. I won't be returning to a center where the director repeatedly beats me down. I like to explore and I like to be silly and I like to have fun— I'm going to play, play, play, play, play while haters like Taylor hate, hate, hate, hate, hate. I hope that some sort of karmic intervention persuades her to direct the program with more empathy, compassion, and understanding— me and karma vibe like that so I like to think that someday Taylor will be nicer.