I was a patient here many times between 2012-2024. It has taken me many years to unpack the trauma I experienced here. Some of it as a teenager, and some as an adult. I was labeled a “frequent flyer” and I was treated differently because of it, despite me being between the ages of 15-26 during my stays here. Overall, Linden Oaks is somewhere I wouldn’t ever step foot in again. Unfortunately many psych hospitals are not great places, I do not claim that Linden Oaks is the worst. But it doesn’t make the bad things they did okay.
Just to list a few situations I experienced here:
- The medical director of the eating disorder unit at that time (and also my psychiatrist on that unit), Dr. Jyoti Shah, told me during my session with her that I couldn’t have the eating disorder and symptoms I was reporting, because my labs were fine. I reported it to the patient advocate and nothing was done. For years after this, I truly believed I wasn’t “sick enough” to have an eating disorder because of her.
- This facility majorly broke HIPAA a few years ago. I had experienced long term trauma, but at this point in my life I was in my 20s. They took my recent ASD level 1 diagnosis as a reason I couldn’t “self report”, that I was incapable of doing so, despite me being told by the therapist there that they didn’t believe I had autism. I have no cognitive deficits or delays. They reported my situation to Adult Protective Services, but the part where they broke HIPAA was when they told my outpatient psychiatrist, without my consent. They then forced me to go into a room with a tech and call my outpatient therapist to tell her about the trauma, while the tech was sitting in the room with me, listening to confirm I told my therapist. They also forced me to tell my mom and threatened that I wouldn’t be able to discharge from the hospital until I told her. I was terrified. Since then, I have a very real fear of psych hospitals and a distrust in mental health providers that has caused long lasting damage.
- At one point I was refusing to eat while inpatient, due to depression and an eating disorder. Instead of trying to help support me, they decided to move me to the severe unit of the psych hospital, where they kept more violent patients or those in active psychosis. I was on the regular psych unit when a tech told me they were going to take me off unit, which wasn’t abnormal so I didn’t question it. They then walked me to the severe unit, without telling me they were going to put me in there. When we got the door of the unit, I told them no one had told me about this and I wanted to talk to my psychiatrist there, Dr. Susan Ahmari, before I would willingly go into the unit. They told me this was not an option and then they tranquilized me and had security guards drag me into the unit and into a room with only a bed on the floor, while I was having a panic attack and crying because I didn’t understand what was happening. I was non violent the entire time. I just wanted to talk to my doctor. I was forced to stay in that unit for multiple days. One of the nurses on that unit told me that he saw cases like me a lot. If a patient on the regular psych unit essentially needed to be “scared straight”, they would send low intensity patients like me to the severe unit, to get patients to do what they wanted, in my case that was eating. I was told by the staff on that unit that I shouldn’t be there, but I was held there anyways. I was absolutely terrified because there was a frequently physically violent male patient in this extremely small unit with me. My roommate had dementia and smeared her feces all over our bathroom. All because I wouldn’t eat.
These are just some examples, there were many more. I truly hope one day the doctors and Linden Oaks itself are held accountable for their actions.
Please do not take this as a reason to not get help. YOU DESERVE TO GET HELP 💜 All I recommend is going in and standing up for yourself if you need to.