I had an incredible experience at Clementine Cherry Hill. I loved all of the staff members and clients dearly and I still miss them all so much to this day. This place and the people there helped to put me in the right direction again. They helped to save my life. And to bring back the old cheerful me.
I remember my first day that I got to Clem I was just so extremely nervous, sad, terrified, feeling so alone, and the last thing I wanted to do was leave my family, friends, and pets for who knew how long at that time. I would say that was the loneliest day I had ever experienced in my life. I felt so empty, upset, and scared. And I didn’t know anyone there yet so I was also trying to be as kind to everyone as I could but still just be present in my gloom of emotions, because how could I ignore such a heavy-emotion moment and day? But luckily everyone there was just so nice, soft, sweet, friendly, and caring to me and from the start everyone was just so supportive and welcoming and I was finally starting to feel like I maybe had hope for life again and no longer feel alone.
It definitely took a week or so for me to really start to not feel so alone anymore and to adjust to everything and how the program ran. The 24/7 support and encouragement everyone gives amazing. And whenever I needed support and to just brain dump the RC’s and clients were always there for me and they always understood me and knew exactly how I felt and they always gave the right feedback. Whenever I fell off of my horse or my path, they were always right there by my side to help me get back up again. This also helped me to finally realize that I wasn’t and am not alone in this journey. My ed was always telling me that I am not worthy, strong, enough, brave, beautiful, or so many other things that I and we all are. It told me that I wasn’t loved, but CCH helped me to know that I am loved and all of those words I thought didn’t describe me. When your mind is all fogged up you don’t know how to tell yourself how worthy, strong, beautiful, brave and capable you really are.
I also made wonderful friendships and relationships at CCH that will be lifelong. And I never would have met any of these gorgeous people if I hadn’t gone here. Not only did it save my life, but it also gave me amazing friends, memories and experiences that I never would have gotten if I hadn’t come. I also got my true happiness back, my laugh, the ability to have fun again and have soul moments and to truly appreciate life. And I do definitely still have some struggles and pumps in the road now, but now I know how to cope with it and to get back up and never let my ed fully take me down again. I am able to fight it so much better than before and I/we will all come out of this stronger than ever before. Even if sometimes my ed is convincing me that I want to go back to old habits and when I was really deep, I know I don’t and I can’t go back there, I won’t go back. This place taught me so many cognitive, behavioral coping skills and what to do when you know or can feel your ed coming on you or a strong wave of emotions or anything. And they taught me how to fight back at my ed every time it tried to take me back down to where I was.
I just want to thank everyone at Clementine so much for supporting me and guiding me every step of the way and this experience has truly changed my life and partly even helped me to find part of who I am as a person. And a huge shoutout to all of the staff who always supported and understood me and helped me get through the hardest times. And to anyone out there who is struggling and/or looking for a place to help them and save them too, I would highly recommend CCH, it is such a cozy and welcoming place to be in when you’re having it hard. And you develop and create a community and friends in your milieu that is just so special and unique. It definitely leaves a mark that you never lose and can carry with you so far. I am rooting for all of you, go find your happily ever after ❤️
And at CCH, you will learn once again to thrive, not just survive.