If I could give 4 1/2 stars I would. I was a patient at the Utah State Hospital, and I was there for 1 year. I have been out for almost 6 months, and have took time to reflect before writing my review to really soak in my experience and this is what I think. While there are many negative thinks I could say about this place, this hospital truly made my life worth living. The Utah State Hospital isn’t meant to be an easy experience, you are meant to be put in a place to challenge yourself, which will cause outbursts, setbacks, relapses, drama, and more, and sadly this is all apart of recovery. But I am lucky to have had all of these setbacks in a safe, secure environment such as the Utah State Hospital, surrounded by staff who at the end of the day care about you and have one ultimate goal, to keep YOU safe. Even if that means resorting to restraints or time to refocus that may cause distress in the moment because top priority is safety, and while that can feel neglecting and like the world is ending, it isn’t. It is actually the best interest for everyone. Because while staff have to focus on safety of the patients they also have to think of safety for themselves. We often think we know what’s best for ourselves but when we are in a state where we can’t make stable decisions we don’t always know what’s best for us. So the hospital has a carefully curated team of staff to manage meds, treatment , food, etc so you can succeed. The Utah State Hospital can be a helpful, therapeutic treatment if you use it to your full potential and keep going when things get hard. There will be times you wish you never went here, and times you hate the staff, but it will all be worth it at the end. The relief and self control you can gain. You can have fun at the Utah State Hospital but within the rules, and breaking the rules comes with consequences so privileges can be taken away, and that is not to punish but to help you learn for the future. Don’t expect fantastic food here, but it is still good and nutritious. I strongly suggest if you are going here to let your experience be yours and don’t let others opinions influence your stay, because you can let your stay be worth while if you choose too.
To sum things up,
Go into the Utah State Hospital with a fresh mindset, be open to change and growth. Be prepared for challenges and embrace them. Don’t expect perfection.
And if my therapist, or treatment team is reading this thank you for helping me be the person I am today.